Hephzibah.

“Sustain me with cakes of raisins, refresh me with apples, for I am lovesick.”

Song of Songs 2:5.

My study notes on Song of Songs filled me in on the following…

The raisins are symbolic of the Holy Spirit… the joy and fullness of the Spirit.

The apple represents the satisfaction only found in Jesus.

Therefore, it is saying, “Sustain me with more of Your Holy Spirit and refresh me with more of Jesus.”

I love the symbolism, how Song of Songs is aesthetically pleasing. Often times I find myself sharing how I am doing, how I am feeling by using pictures or parallels.

Someone from my core group shared this past week the beauty of people closing their eyes when praying. We watched a movie updating us on the one year anniversary since the Haitian earthquake… over 10,000 people gathered together for 12 hours praising the Lord for His mercy, compassion, and grace. To see these peoples’ facial expressions with eagerness and expectation and then their eyes closed seeking out His beauty was one of the most precious sights. They are not surrounded by distractions, of” beautiful” temporary objects. They are consumed with seeking out and finding the beauty of the Father. With eyes closed their hearts and minds are opened to a whole other realm.

So with both of these artistic revelations, the verse from Song of Songs and the idea of closing your eyes when praying to seek out His beauty, my mind formed pondered and thought upon the beauty of abandonment.

To be 100% obedient to Him because He is my all in all… to have the obedience stem from affection towards Him in realizing more and more the love He has for me.

To trust as I close my eyes and know He will show me what this world could never reveal

To be sustained by His breath of life and nothing of my own

To be refreshed by the continuous thought that Jesus is worthy… I am entitled to nothing.

I have been receiving so much revelation on being carved out for Him so He can pour out who He is and the love He has for me inside of my heart, my inner man. He can only satisfy the void in my heart. The earthly pleasures are being pushed out… “gutted” out.  I don’t want to mix anything of this world with His holy, righteous, pure love.

He is showing me what I need to fully let go of. For He is a good Father and knows how I can be set free and set apart. He knows what keeps me attached and indulging in this world. So I am…

“letting go”

“being gutted out”

“being mesmerized as I close my eyes”

And “being sustained and refreshed by Holy Spirit.”